August 2022 – I hadn’t been at work in my teaching job since early February when my carefully spinning plates had all fallen, smashing on the floor around me. Anxiety. Depression. Worry for my daughter who was also experiencing acute anxiety and panic attacks linked to high school attendance. Living grief , where I knew the next few years or months would involve me watching my Dad live with (and possibly…probably die from) cancer, as I had watched my Mum twenty-four years before. These were the invisible plates, the ones that only I knew I was trying to keep up. The others – the stress of teaching in a hyper target-driven and judgemental time, peri menopause, and a post-covid life where none of this seemed important anymore – these were the ones that friends and colleagues could see. But they had their own plates, both visible and invisible, to spin.

The new term was fast approaching and I had managed to secure a CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) workshop place after a few months on a wait list, despite any professional who had assessed me stating I really needed talk therapy and at least 12 weeks of it, at that. In February, March, April….that distant target of returning to work in September, maybe, had seemed do-able, well at least on paper. In reality however, it was a different story. Tears, tears, more tears and then even more tears. Panic attacks and palpitations just thinking about holding on until half-term. Then deciding that if I could hold on to half-term I would resign and leave at Christmas. Then deciding I couldn’t even manage that.

So I took the plunge and resigned with a wispy notion that I would set up a print design business, focusing on something I loved to do with less plates to spin.

Then Jess Cunningham came into my life – well my Facebook feed. Belief Coding®. Transformational. Getting rid of limiting beliefs for good and replacing them with new positive affirmations. I was tempted there and then to have a go – just the free masterclass at first. I knew I needed the help and my crucial talk therapy was still a couple of months away on the never-ending wait list. But my Dad and his dance with liver cancer needed me and that was my main focus. I knew I needed to look after myself but that could come later.

Fast forward to early 2023 – my wonderful dad sadly hadn’t made it to Christmas, but it was his time and the end was a blessed relief. Now I needed to build myself back up. It was time for Belief Coding®. Another round of FB adverts came my way and this time I took the plunge! For myself, to heal me, to put me back together and if it benefited my daughter and those around me on the way then all the better. But once you have experienced the transformational magic of Belief Coding® it is hard to go back. The print design business is still a nugget of future hope but, I have found my soul’s purpose. My new career, even though it doesn’t feel like that, it’s just spreading wonderful healing and transformation. A new day job, even though helping and healing feels as far from a job as you can get.

Through the training process you have many sessions on yourself to release your own limiting beliefs, as well as facilitating on other trainees. I am chipping away at those trapped emotions that saw me drop all the plates when the going got tough. Some amazing fellow trainees have removed the negative emotional charge and guilt associated with losing both my Dad AND my Mum all those years apart. I am feeling strong enough to cut down on my anti-depressant dose as I self-facilitate BC and channel Quantum Healing Energy through me for the greatest good. I am currently doing 100 days of Belief Coding®, continuing to transform my life one belief at a time. I feel good and when I look at myself a year ago, or even 18 months ago, I wish I’d had Belief Coding® then. But I firmly believe that what you need will come to you when it’s meant to. The journey I’ve been on has led me here to this moment and this opportunity and the people who need this healing from me.

I’ve gone from shaping hearts and minds in the classroom to healing energies and aligning chakras. I couldn’t be happier.

Jill x

p.s. To all my former colleagues who may be worrying about Amazon’s profits now I’m not ‘just getting this for school’….the holistic shops are doing a roaring trade in crystals, incense and oracle cards 😉